shebreathes's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- dreams so, i had a few vivid dreams last night. i'll try to write down the ones i still remember. one: i was in a restaurant, sitting at a table with some people (maybe my sister and mike ...) and the waiter came over. i wanted something from him so i said that i'd take my shirt off if he gave me what i wanted. he said okay. i took my shirt off a laid across the table. he looked so turned on. the people i was sitting with were a little embarrassed and everyone in the restaurant was looking at me. the waiter wanted me to pour water from one cup to another while lying there, so i did. then he poured a cup of water and ice all over me. then he went to suck my nipple and i said "you can look but don’t fucking touch" and pushed him off. i felt really sexy and in control. two: i woke up in a bed, not my own, and my brother walked in. he sat down in a chair and sighed. he said "they found dad. he was at the bottom of pete's lake. he finally drowned." i felt so fucking sick. i stood up on the bed and covered my ears shouting "NO NO NO NO NO NO NO." i got a flash of my dad putting on rubber boots that went up over the knee and then getting in a canoe. i thought: he must have known he was going to drown. three: i took a plane to new zealand with kathleen. when i got there, i realised i left something in bradford so i went back to get it and then i came back to new zealand. apparently, the plane ride was quite short. me and kathleen were taking a tour of new zealand on a school bus which was also a plane. she was sitting in front of me with someone she didn't know. i was crammed with two people i didn't know in three-to-a-seat style. we were looking out the window and commenting on the scenery. there were lots of ever-green trees that looked like a cross between a pine and a cactus. they were growing out of swamps and lakes. i kept talking to kathleen really loudly about how the scenery here was different and how it was similar from the scenery in canada. i wanted everyone on the bus to know i was canadian. i eventually started talking to the guy next to me and we decided to move to them empty seat across the aisle together. i guess it was night, because everyone put curtains up around their seats and went to sleep. he laid back and i sat on top of him. we were talking and there was a lot of sexual tension. i told him i was going to be a porn star and he seemed very surprised. i told him my name was abigail but then i realised that he must know i was lying because he'd heard kathleen call me erin earlier. we started kissing and making out. he seemed to think i was exotic and fascinating. i liked that. i felt really in control. he asked me if i was eighteen and i said no. he started to freak out about that. i told him i was seventeen and that it was okay. i asked him how old he way, he said that he was eighteen going on nineteen and that that made him three years older than me. i told him it was okay and we resumed making out. i took off my shirt and he noticed my armpit hair. he was fascinated, not grossed out. he ran his fingers through it and said "you don't shave, but you used to." i said "yeah." it was obvious that he liked it. we started having sex, with me on top like that and it felt really good in an unusual way. i was really close to climax (quickly) and i started to get worried about coming too fast. the moment passed and i didn't come but i lost my arousal. so i got off him and we just sort of lied together. after that, i went into the rec room in my basement and my brother and sister were sleeping in there. i said "wake up! i just had sex on a plane." i was really happy about it. i tried to tell them about it but i couldn't remember his name. at first, i thought it was albert but that didn't seem right. then, i remembered it was clay. i wrote a diary entry about it but it didn't seem like the kind of thing i would write. it said "i met this guy... he was really nice... we might get to go on a double date today before i go back to canada... i'm so excited!" i went to go meet him. he was with a friend. he was acting totally cocky and not the the shy guy that he was before. he told me he'd really like to have a mouse infestation at his house. i told him "yeah, it seems great. they're all cute and cuddly. but try dealing with mouse shit everywhere and chewed up wires." he just laughed and it pissed me off that he wasn't taking me seriously. he grabbed me and started feeling me up and kissing me and then he pulled me down on the sidewalk. i went along with it even though i didn't want to. i bit his lip really hard and then i woke up. 8:21 am - August 05, 2004 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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